i feel sooooo witless. he made me felt witless. he played with my feelings, my heart. OMG !! i'm hopeless to the core. You gave twinges to my heart for the past few days . i realise what you said and did was positive. But i'm having delusions still. You see , i really want to end my misdemeanor. I want to be a better person, then you came. Since that day i kept reminiscing during those time when i was still puerile. and y'kno what, you're still being disrepute and showing disinterest at some times. If you still want to continue to elude me, PLEASE stop. let me go ... if not, make my delusions go away and make me feel better like how we used to be at clarke quay ..
Just came back from work. It was awesome ! except for the part my shift is over.
ok firstly when i came, my manager asked me "eh, why you come ah. today you not working you know". i replied "i am lahhh , Hardi put me here today until 2.30am". When i got to work, i saw new staffs inside. I was abit nervous though, i mean i'm scared if they are not the friendly type and all. But they're super friendly. I mean they even helped me out on a situation which was soooo unexpected. And i don't wish to talk about it. So there's two of them, one is Nana and the other one is Jojo. Nana, from appearance, i seriously thought she was my age or 19-20 years old because she was around my height. Face the fact, she is 26. OMG. haha , she is SUPER hyper and so gerek. Jojo, unexpectedly a classmate of my friend in ITE Clementi. He is 18 this year. He is my best bitching buddy. i mean, we talked about alot of people. haha. jahat kan aku ? hehe. Thats about it , and ohh i will be going jogging later morning at Macritchie(did i spelled it correctly?) later. and will be attending a chalet too. I will blog about it soon ((:
sometimes i wonder , what is wrong with me ? i mean , yeah . you know what i'm talking about. Towards friends , families and umm boyfriends. I really want to be a better person here in your holy world. I'm sorry for ALL the sins that i've done. Now i'm trying to do the best that i could but i NEED your help to give me all the strength i need and help me pull this through together. My mind is abit awakened by now but i want to be totally waken up. I want the best for both me and my love ones. I want to be happy always , and i also want my loved ones to be happy. I want them to be loved , to be wealthy and to be healthy. I can't bear to see them suffer. I love my mum and i don't want her to be like that. I want her to be The Woman of The World. I love my grandparents and i want them to enjoy retirement. I love my girls and i want the best for them, i want to be their best. And please , make him be a better person and give me a sign on this. I want to be loved dear god. I want to feel love from my true soulmate. I want to be wealthy so that i wont have to worry about a thing. I want to be healthy so that things will go smoothly without a barrier. LASTLY I want the best for my mum and my grandparents. I love them ALOT. I want to see them die smiling because of me.
i am not exactly celebrating Valentine's day, to me, Valentine's day could be anytime, anyday.
but yeahh , i got a present from my mum during this day. A Dinny Hall pearl earrings. I love my mum (: I went to town with Hakim on that day. We totally have no plans until he called one of his friend. His name was Hisham i guess, and he came with his girlfriend, Nurul, as a couple. Hisham wanted to go karaoke, so i called Cash Studio to book for a room for 4 pax at 8pm. and oh my god, the earliest room they have was at 1.30am. But i told the lady on the phone to inform me if there is any cancellation of room bookings. Lucky me, the lady from Cash Studio called me back at 7.45pm telling me that there's a room for 8pm . Happy giler sehh, hahaaa. So karaoke ...... till 11pm, then hangout at BP.
alright folks , i'm taking up a full-time higher nitec course , April intake. So , watch out for me in ite uniform , haha. Anyway last Saturday , i went sheesha . After sucha LONG time we didn't meet up, Naja, Isya, Keisyah and myself met up last saturday accompanied by Shahiddin, Mus-e and Wan. As pernormal , we went to Mosi Cafe and ordered Apple Mint. We snapped quite alot of pictures.
on personal thoughts of myself :somehow i felt that i'm living a new life. i've thrown my past away. i've realised how my attitude in the past affects others and eventually affects myself. Looking back at those times, i can't believe how selfish i am , i can't believe how stupid i was to do those stuffs(drugs). Now, i'm going through a whole new beginning. I'm going to enter a new school , with new friends and new teachers in a new environment. I hope i won't screw things up this time. I just wanna live a simple life with a little bit of sophistication and challenges. I'm going to be successful. ((:
